SPIRITUALITY

You want “spirituality” ✨

The twine flames
The soul mate

You want
The perfected state
The unperturbed
Presence and
Unconditional love

But do you want truth?

Real truth
Truth borne out
Of brokenness
Truth
That you finally see
When you hit
The lowest of the low.

Or is your spirituality
Another costume
That you are wearing
To be someone
To make sense
To be accepted
Loved
Respected
Needed?

I can’t help
But sense
That this search
We are all on
In the name
Of spirituality
Is just a clever way
To avoid
Having our hearts
So broken open
That the very dirt
Beneath our feet
Becomes
Holy.

We fear the pain
Of this breaking
So much.
How could it be
That the darkest
Or most mundane parts
Of our existence
Are also breathtakingly
Exquisite?

How could it be
That our memories
Our bodies
Our relationships
Our lack of meaning
Our addictions
Our patterns of sabotage
Are actually divine jewels?

The sheer divinity
Of reality
Just as it is
Is so overwhelming
For the mind
That the concepts
Of “spirituality”
We create
And so loyally follow
Become another shield
Of protection.

Better to drop down
To the lowest point
Naked of all pretence
Completely defeated
Unable to adhere to
Any form of spirituality
And then just wait
Until your eyes
Open up.

If there is such a thing
As “spirituality”
This is it.